Chapter 106: Chicago - The Storm
Friday, March 4, 2016 (2:00 PM)
The sky over Chicago was heavy with gray clouds that threatened a storm that never came. Michael stood in front of his room's window, watching the wind shake the flags on nearby buildings. He had slept almost ten hours—the longest rest since the tour began—but he didn't feel rested. He felt anxious.
Tonight was different.
It wasn't just another show in another city. It was Chicago, Cole Bennett's territory, the venue where legends had sweated on the same stage. And more importantly, it was the first performance since the live that had broken the internet.
Michael checked his phone. The clips were still circulating, accumulating millions of combined views. Comments had multiplied exponentially. Some media outlets were comparing it to iconic moments of artistic vulnerability: Nirvana's unplugged, Kanye's confessions, the public breakdowns that had humanized unreachable stars.
But he wasn't an unreachable star. He was a sixteen-year-old kid who had cried in front of a camera at three in the morning because he missed parents he had never known in this world.
Karl knocked on the door and entered without waiting for an answer.
"How are you?" he asked, sitting on the edge of the bed.
"Nervous," Michael admitted without turning from the window. "For the first time in a long time."
"That's normal. After what happened last night, people expect more than a show. They expect an experience."
"I know."
Karl stayed silent for a moment, observing Michael's back.
"You know what I think?" he finally said. "I think what happened last night wasn't a mistake. I think it was exactly what you needed to do. And I think tonight, if you channel that same honesty, you're going to create something neither of us will forget."
Michael finally turned. His eyes were tired but determined.
"Let's go to the venue. I need to feel the space before people arrive."
---
(4:30 PM)
The Metro Chicago was empty except for the technical crew preparing lights and sound. Michael walked across the stage in silence, his Jordan 4s resonating against the wood worn by decades of shows. He could feel the history of the place in every plank, in every mark left by microphones and monitors.
T-Roc was at his station, making final adjustments to the setlist. When he saw Michael, he looked up.
"Last-minute changes?"
Michael stood thinking. The original setlist was designed before the live, before everything changed. Now he needed something different.
"I want to open with 'The Way I See Things,'" he said.
T-Roc frowned. "Open with a slow song? We normally start with 'Look At Me!' to establish energy."
"Tonight isn't normal. The people coming today saw the live. They know I was in a dark place. If I come out and start screaming like nothing happened, they're going to feel like it was fake."
T-Roc considered the argument.
"So what do you propose?"
"I open with 'The Way I See Things.' Just me on stage, no spectacular lights, no effects. I give them what they came to see: the real version. And after that, I take them to hell with 'Look At Me!' and don't let them breathe until the end."
T-Roc smiled slowly. "From vulnerability to chaos. I like it. It's a complete narrative arc."
"Exactly. I want them to leave here feeling like they lived something, not just watched a show."
Michael took the microphone from the stand and walked to the edge of the stage. He looked toward the empty hall, imagining the eleven hundred people who would be there in a few hours.
"Tonight is going to be different," he said quietly, more to himself than to anyone. "Tonight I'm going to show them everything."
---
(7:00 PM)
The doors of Metro Chicago opened at seven on the dot. The line stretched half a block—hundreds of people wrapped in black hoodies and t-shirts with Michael's face that they had bought online or printed at home. Some held signs with lyrics from his songs. Others simply waited in silence, with that reverent anticipation that precedes significant events.
Michael watched everything from a second-floor window, hidden behind a curtain. He could see the faces of his audience: teenagers with deep dark circles, kids who seemed to fit in nowhere, girls with smeared makeup as an aesthetic statement. They were his people. The ones who understood.
"There are journalists from Rolling Stone and Pitchfork," Karl informed him, approaching with his tablet. "I also saw someone from Complex taking photos of the line. Last night's live attracted press attention that normally doesn't cover emerging artists."
"Good," Michael said without looking away from the window. "Let them see."
"Are you sure you want to open with the new song? It's risky in front of the press."
Michael finally turned toward Karl.
"Karl, I've spent weeks calculating every move. Every release, every post, every decision has been strategic. But last night I did something without thinking, something completely impulsive, and it was the most effective thing I've done since all this started."
He paused.
"Tonight I'm not going to calculate anything. I'm going to go out there and be honest. If that destroys me, at least I'll have been real."
Karl looked at him for a long moment, then nodded.
"Okay. I trust you."
Michael looked out the window again. The line kept growing.
"One more hour," he murmured. "One more hour and everything changes."
---
(8:45 PM)
The Metro's dressing room was small, barely enough for a couch, a mirror with lights, and a table with water bottles. Michael sat alone, headphones on but no music playing. He needed the silence, or at least the illusion of it.
Through the walls, he could hear the murmur of eleven hundred people waiting. It was a different sound from Denver or Tucson. Denser, more expectant. As if the audience knew tonight would be different.
He closed his eyes and let his mind wander.
He thought about his parents. Not the ones from this world, but the original ones. The ones who were probably still searching for explanations for his disappearance. Had they found his body? Or had he simply vanished, leaving a void they could never fill?
He thought about the Michael from this world, the one who had died so he could exist here. Had he been happy? Had he had his own dreams that Michael was now living in his place?
He thought about Amy, Harris, Karl, Cole. People who trusted him without knowing the full truth of who he was or where he came from.
And he thought about the fans waiting outside. The ones who had seen the live. The ones who had sent messages saying his music had saved them. What did he owe them? What responsibility did he have toward people who saw him as something more than an artist?
The dressing room door opened. It was T-Roc.
"Five minutes, Mike."
Michael removed his headphones and stood up. He looked at himself in the mirror one last time. Black hoodie, cargo pants, Jordan 4s. No jewelry, no accessories. Just him.
"Let's go," he said.
---
(9:00 PM)
The lights of Metro Chicago went out completely. The murmur of the audience turned into an expectant silence, so dense that Michael could feel it pressing against his chest.
He walked toward the stage in total darkness. His footsteps were inaudible on the wooden floor. He found the microphone by memory, his fingers recognizing the familiar shape of the stand.
A single spotlight turned on, illuminating him from above with a beam of white light that made him look like a ghost materialized from nothing. There was no music, no beat. Just him and the silence.
"Chicago," Michael said, his voice resonating through the venue. "Before we start, I need to tell you something."
The audience remained in absolute silence.
"Many of you saw what happened two nights ago. At three in the morning, in a hotel room in Kansas City, I broke down a little in front of a camera."
He paused, letting the words settle.
"It wasn't planned. It wasn't a marketing strategy. It was simply... me. The me I try to hide behind the music and the beats and the autotune."
Someone in the audience shouted "We love you!" and a wave of affirmation swept through the venue.
Michael smiled slightly.
"Thank you. Seriously. The messages I received... some of you shared very personal things with me. Stories of loss, of loneliness, of moments when you felt like you couldn't go on."
His voice cracked slightly, but he continued.
"I want you to know that I heard you. Every single one. And tonight, I want to start with something I wrote thinking of you. Of everyone who feels lost. Of everyone who looks at the sky searching for answers that never come."
T-Roc released the first chords of "The Way I See Things." The minimalist beat filled the space like a sonic fog, enveloping the audience in an atmosphere of melancholy.
Michael closed his eyes and began to sing.
'I got a feelin' that I'm not gonna be here for next year'
'So let's laugh a little before I'm gone'
The audience was motionless. Not a scream, not a push. Just eleven hundred people breathing in unison, absorbing every word.
'I've been dreamin' of this shit for a while now'
'Got me high now'
'She don't love me, but she's singin' my songs'
Michael opened his eyes and looked toward the darkness where he knew his fans were. He could see the reflections of tears on some cheeks, illuminated by the dim light of the stage.
'I don't feel much pain'
'Got a knife in my back and a bullet in my brain'
'I'm clinically insane'
'Walkin' home alone, I see faces in the rain'
He stepped down from the stage while singing, walking directly toward the barrier separating him from the front row. Security tensed, but Michael signaled them to stay still.
'Where did all the time go?'
'Spend it gettin' high while I hide from the five O'
'Where did all the lines go?'
'Now, I'm so high I be fuckin' with my eyes closed'
He extended his hand toward the audience. Dozens of hands rose to touch it, fingers grazing his knuckles as if they were touching something sacred.
'Runnin' away from me, but I'm not givin' up on you'
'It's just the way I be'
'It's just the way I see things'
'Take her away from me, but I'm not givin' up on you, no'
'It's just the way I be'
'It's just the way I see things'
When the song ended, the silence lasted three full seconds. Then, like a dam breaking, the audience exploded in applause and screams that shook the walls of the Metro.
Michael returned to the center of the stage, breathing heavily. The spotlight went out for a moment.
When it turned back on, there was fire in his eyes.
"That was the truth," he said into the microphone. "Now I'm going to show you the chaos."
The distorted bass of "Look At Me!" exploded through the speakers, and Metro Chicago became an inferno.
---
(9:25 PM)
The next forty minutes were a blur of sweat, screams, and uncontrolled energy. Michael jumped from one side of the stage to the other, his hoodie soaked and stuck to his body, while the audience became a single pulsating organism.
"Look At Me!" flowed directly into "Paris," which flowed into "Ghost Boy," which flowed into "Betrayed." There were no pauses, no introductions. Just song after song, hitting the audience without giving them time to recover.
The mosh pit in the center of the venue was brutal. Bodies colliding, arms flailing, people being lifted and passed over the heads of others. Big Rob maintained watch from the side, ready to intervene if anyone got hurt, but the violence was consensual, almost ritual.
Michael came down from the stage during "Betrayed," walking directly toward the mosh pit. People parted like the Red Sea, creating a corridor he walked through while singing about drugs and betrayal. Hands touched him from all sides, grabbing his clothes, his hair, any part of him they could reach.
It was dangerous. Karl was probably having a panic attack somewhere. But Michael couldn't stop. This was what he needed. This physical, visceral connection with the people who had kept him alive during the darkest moments of his new existence.
He returned to the stage just in time for the last chorus, his voice hoarse but still powerful.
"Chicago," he gasped into the microphone when the song ended, "are you ready for something you've never heard?"
The roar of affirmation was deafening.
The lights went out.
And the first chords of "Witchblades" emerged from the darkness.
---
(9:45 PM)
If Denver had been the baptism of "Witchblades," Chicago was its consecration.
The distorted bass filled the Metro like toxic smoke, dense and oppressive. Red strobe lights flickered sporadically, turning the audience into a mass of shadows and flashes. Michael stood in the center of the stage, motionless like a statue, letting the tension build.
'Switchblades, cocaine, GothBoiClique make a hoe shake'
'Black fur, black coat, GothBoiClique in the back, hoe'
His voice came out distorted by the aggressive autotune, almost unrecognizable. This wasn't the vulnerable Michael who had opened the show. This was something darker, more dangerous.
'Switchblades, cocaine, GothBoiClique till my soul take'
'Black jeans, half black hoes, GothBoiClique in the castle'
The mosh pit that formed was different from the previous ones. Slower, more deliberate. People weren't jumping as much as swaying, moving to the hypnotic rhythm of the bass as if they were in a collective trance.
'In high school, I was a loner'
'I was a reject, I was a poser'
'Multiple personalities, I'm bipolar'
'I swear, I mean well, I'm still goin' to hell'
Michael walked to the edge of the stage, looking directly into the eyes of the front row. He could see that some had tears mixed with sweat. Others had expressions of almost religious ecstasy.
'Witchcraft, love chants'
'Whisper in my ear, put me in a trance'
'Cocaine all night long'
'When I die, bury me with all my ice on'
He lifted the microphone toward the audience for the chorus, letting them sing the words he had written.
'When I die, bury me with all my ice on'
'When I die, bury me without the lights on'
'Lights off, nightlights'
'Clothes off, baby, I got good white'
Eleven hundred voices singing about death and darkness. It was the most beautiful and disturbing thing Michael had experienced on a stage.
'Ask me if I'm alright, do you want me to lie?'
That last line floated in the air as the beat faded, leaving only the echo of the words bouncing off the brick walls.
Michael stood motionless in the silence that followed.
And then Chicago exploded.
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(10:30 PM)
The show was coming to an end. Michael was physically destroyed, his hoodie soaked in sweat, his voice hoarse from screaming so much. But there was one more song left. The one that always closed his shows. The one that had defined him from the beginning.
The lights dimmed to a cold, sad blue. T-Roc released the first chords of "crybaby," and something changed in the air of Metro Chicago.
Michael sat on the edge of the stage, letting his legs hang toward the audience. It was a vulnerable position, almost childlike. Perfect for what was coming.
His voice came out soft, almost an amplified whisper.
'She said I'm a crybaby, I can't be up lately'
'Girl, you drive me crazy, AMG Mercedes'
'Speedin' down the highway, lookin' at the street lights'
'Geekin' on a Friday, I can never sleep right'
The audience had stopped moving. There was no longer a mosh pit, no more pushing. Just eleven hundred motionless people, breathing to the rhythm of the song.
'Knowin' I hurt you, I don't deserve you'
'I shoulda curved you, I know I'm the worst, boo'
'But I could be cool too, and you got them dance moves'
'And I got this vibe, I swear it's perfect to ride to'
Michael could see phone lights turning on one by one, like stars being born in a night sky. Soon, the entire venue glowed with that artificial radiance that had become the symbol of his shows.
'I wanna die too, we all wanna die too'
'I got this vibe, I swear she love gettin' high to'
'I love gettin' high too, I wanna hide you'
'How did I find you? I'll be inside, I'm makin' music to cry to'
The line "I wanna die too, we all wanna die too" floated in the air with a weight that transcended the music. Michael knew that many of those in that room had felt exactly that. And he also knew that, somehow, songs like this helped them keep going.
The chorus arrived, and this time, Michael lifted the microphone toward the audience.
'Oh, it's a lonely world, I know'
'Gon' get a lonely girl, that's for sure'
'Oh, I'm a lonely boy, she made a lonely boy, yeah, I know'
Eleven hundred voices singing about loneliness. The irony was beautiful: they were alone together.
'Oh, it's a lonely world, I know'
'Gon' get a lonely girl, that's for sure'
'Oh, I'm a lonely boy, she made a lonely boy, yeah, I know'
Michael let the crowd take control as the second verse began. He just held the microphone toward them, listening to his words come back amplified by the sound system.
'She said I'm a crybaby, I can't be up lately'
'Girl, you drive me crazy, AMG Mercedes'
'Speedin' down the highway, lookin' at the street lights'
'Geekin' on a Friday, I can never sleep right'
Some people were crying openly. Others sang with their eyes closed, completely lost in the music. Michael observed them all, recording each face in his memory.
'Knowin' I hurt you, I don't deserve you'
'I shoulda curved you, I know I'm the worst, boo'
'But I could be cool too, and you got them dance moves'
'And I got this vibe, I swear it's perfect to ride to'
'I wanna die too, we all wanna die too'
'I got this vibe, I swear she love gettin' high to'
'I love gettin' high too, I wanna hide you'
'How did I find you? I'll be inside, I'm makin' music to cry to'
The final chorus arrived with an intensity that made the walls of the Metro tremble.
'Oh, it's a lonely world, I know'
'Gon' get a lonely girl, that's for sure'
'Oh, I'm a lonely boy, she made a lonely boy, yeah, I know'
'Oh, it's a lonely world, I know'
'Gon' get a lonely girl, that's for sure'
'Oh, I'm a lonely boy, she made a lonely boy, yeah, I know'
The music faded slowly, leaving only the echo of the last words bouncing off the brick.
Michael sat motionless on the edge of the stage. The silence lasted three full seconds. Then, like a dam breaking, the audience exploded in applause and screams that shook the walls of the Metro.
Slowly, Michael stood up. He said nothing. He didn't thank the audience. He made no dramatic gesture.
He simply made a deep, slow, sustained bow.
And when he straightened up, there were tears in his eyes.
"Thank you," he whispered into the microphone, his voice barely audible over the screams. "For everything."
He dropped the microphone and walked toward the darkness of the backstage, letting the echo of the impact resonate in the venue for long seconds after he disappeared.
In the dressing room, he let himself fall against the wall and slid down to the floor.
Karl entered a minute later, finding him there, with his head in his hands.
"Mike," Karl said softly, sitting next to him. "That was... I have no words."
Michael looked up. His face was wet, but he was smiling.
"You know what's the craziest part?" he said with a trembling voice. "For a moment, while they were singing with me, I forgot this wasn't real. I forgot I'm a fraud from another world singing songs that aren't mine."
Karl frowned, confused by the words, but Michael continued before he could ask.
"For a moment, I was simply Michael. A kid making music for people who need it. And that..." his voice broke. "That was enough."
Karl didn't understand everything Michael was saying, but he understood enough. He put a hand on his shoulder.
"It's enough," he confirmed. "It was always enough."
They sat there in silence while the noise of the audience evacuating the venue filtered through the walls.
Chicago had been conquered.
But more importantly, something inside Michael had begun to heal.